Chapter Eighteen

               Jon was pacing the waiting room as Richie and Jimmy were waiting for news. Richie just gave Jimmy a concerned glance so he got up to see if he could do anything for his Dad. Jon just wanted to be left alone and flicked Jimmy off. But Jimmy wouldn’t give up. 

“Dad come on I’ll get you some coffee ok? Mom would be mad at me if you didn’t get something in your stomach.” he told his Father. 

Turning to his first born, he said, “Fine coffee will be good. Rich do you want anything?”  

Smiling, “Sure I could go for some coffee. You need help Jim?” he asked winking. 

“No I’ll be ok.” he told them as he was just about to leave. 

“Hey Jim, you did call everyone right?” Jon asked his son. 

Even thou he told his Dad a couple of times now that he did he would answer him again. “Yeah Dad I did. They all should be here in the next day or so.” Looking at Richie he gave him a hand sign to see if he could help his Dad. Richie just smiled and waved him off. Jim shook his head and mouthed Thank You. 

Richie got up and walked over to Jon now. “Ok Kidd you’re making me dizzy come sit down before you make a hole in the carpet.” he told Jon as he tried very hard to get him to sit down. 

“I can’t Richie I feel like this is my fault.” he told him as he sat next to him.  

Looking at him like he had two heads, “What the hell do you mean you think this is your fault? What the hell did you do?” Richie wanted to know. 

Not looking at him as he was staring at the ground, “We were having a fight. That’s all we seem to do. I can’t seem to say anything right or if she does I take it wrong. Then this happens Rich I caused this.” he was just so over whelmed he didn’t know what to do.  

Richie felt really bad for his friend, he didn’t know what to say to make him feel better. He didn’t know what to say to make himself feel better. But one thing he did know was this wasn't anyone's fault. “Jon you damn well know you didn’t cause this to happen. Ellie knew what she had to do to prevent things from happening and other things also. I mean Jon she had her nitro pills in her hand in the downstairs bathroom. Does she usually keep them there?” he asked him curiously. 

Jon sat there listening to him and when Richie mentioned her nitro pills that’s when it hit him. Looking at him with a very unhappy face, “No she keeps them next to her bed. Why the hell would she keep some in the downstairs bathroom unless she expected to have a heart attack or at least some sort of pain. She does that with her migraine meds too. She had to have known that this was going to happen for her to have kept these damn pills downstairs. Why didn’t she tell me? What if she didn’t have the pills in her hand and she couldn’t tell me where they were? I would have wasted time running upstairs for them. Damn Ellie!” Jon was really pissed now and scared to death. Ellie was keeping secrets from him and he hated that. 

“Hey calm down will you? We don’t know what her reasoning was. It’s not like she could have ran up the stairs if she was having pain so she kept a bottle downstairs in case of an emergency. (looking at Jon) Hey what’s so wrong about that?” he asked him trying his hardest to explain to him why she did what she did. 

Sitting with his head in his hands while listening to him he finally lifted his head, and clearing his throat. “Nothing I guess I’m just looking more into than I should. It just scares the shit out of me Rich. All these years together and I really can’t think being apart from her. You saw how I was when we got together again. How we both blamed my Mother. Keeping us apart. You were the only one I really told everything too other than Dave. He lived it with me. God I was such a bastard to everyone when she left. I think I fucked everything in a skirt for a year.” he told him. 

“I bet your Mom just loved that.” Richie said to him smirking.  

“Yeah she had some choice words for me because I brought them back to the house and she didn’t want Tony or Matty to see the ‘Cheap Bimbo’s’ that I kept bringing home before I left for New York.” Jon chuckled.  

“I can image. Jon I’m really sorry about everything that happened. I really am. I never meant to cause you any pain.” Richie sincerely told him. 

Looking at him, he put his hand on his knee and said, “I know Rich. I acted like a jealous fool and I shouldn’t have. If it was anyone else but you I would have punched them in the mouth. But because it was you I was just taken aback so much that I couldn’t breath. So yeah I acted out and I'm sorry too.” he told his best friend and brother. Just then Jimmy walked back in with some coffee’s. 

“So did I miss anything? I see you guy’s didn’t kill each other. (under his breath) that’s a good sign.” He sat down and hoped they would stay civil to each other. 

"What did you say Son?” Jon asked him curious. 

“Me nothing. Did anyone come out with any info about Mom?” he asked trying to be aware of what his Father and Richie were doing. 

“Jim are you mad at us for some reason?” his father asked him. 

Looking at him and not wanting to yell at him, “No Dad I’m just frustrated that’s all.” he told him as he went back to his phone. 

Jon looked at Richie and Richie knew that look. He knew that he wanted to blow but he also knew that this wasn’t the place for it. Getting up and grabbing Jon by the arm, “Hey why don’t we go for a walk ok?” 

Looking like Richie lost his head, “I don’t want to go for a walk!” he more than sternly told him. 

“Well I do and your coming with me.” he told Jon and he dragged him out of the room. Entering the hall, a little way’s down the hall Jon turned to him and as he lowered his voice but Richie still knew that he was pissed. “What the Hell Rich!” 

Giving Jon the same stink eye that he would give everyone that he was pissed at, Richie told him flatly,” I got you out of there before you and Jimmy got into it. I could see that both of your faces that you two were going to go at it.” he told him pissed. 

Jon just pushed his hands thru his hair and blew out a breath as he shuffled back and forth on his feet. “Ok he wanted to say something to me Rich and I don’t think it was going to be Hey thanks for giving my Mom a heart attack. They blame me don’t they?” he looked into his best friends face. 

Richie was feeling really bad now for him. “Hey I doubt that very much. But going at him isn’t going to help things. Right? Now if you promise not to jump on him when we go back in there I’ll take you back.” he told him looking at him and hoping he means it. 

“Yeah ok. Hey thanks for everything you’re doing. You could have told me to go to hell and I would have deserved it.” he knew Richie could have but he also knew he had to apologize. 

Slapping Jon on the shoulder,” Hey Blood Brothers remember?” he told him smiling. 

“Yeah Blood Brothers.” Jon smiled back. They walked back inside the waiting room as Jim was still on his phone. Jon walked up to him and sat next to him. 

“Are you going to keep staring at that or can we talk?” he asked his son. 

“I’m fine. So what do you want to talk about?” he asked his Father. 

Jon was trying hard to keep his temper in check. “James please can you tell me what’s bothering you.” he asked him again. 

Looking at his Dad he said, "Why did this happen? She seemed fine when I left. Did you two argue like you usually do? You know that gets her blood pressure up. You and Uncle Richie were fighting weren’t you?” he asked looking at Richie. 

Richie just put up his hands as Jon explained. “No we weren’t fighting over Richie, If you must know we were fighting over sex.” he told him. Well Jim’s eyes went wide. 

“You were what?” he asked as he was turning a little red and as Richie chuckled. 

“We were arguing about sex and that she didn’t think I found her attractive anymore and I was trying to explain to her that if we had sex...” but was cut off by Jimmy quickly. 

“That’s ok Dad I don’t need to hear anymore really I don’t and I’ll let the rest of them know ok? They have been texting me all night and believe me this will shut us all up.” he told them making a face. 

“So you don’t want to hear it?” Jon asked him smirking now. 

”No Dad I don’t especially when I was about twenty-two and I accidentally walked backstage one night to show my girlfriend and buddies that my Dad was this Rockstar and caught you and Mom in your dressing room doing it on your couch. Thank God all we saw was your ass and nothing of Mom otherwise I think I would have died.” well Richie had to get up and walkway from them and into a corner he was laughing hard.  

“Oh yeah I almost forgot about that. Your Mom was so careful after that with the other kids. I Thank God that was the last time we ever did that. Thanks by the way.” he said smiling remembering that memory.” 

“DAD!” Jimmy said a little loudly when the doctor came in. 

“Mr. Bongiovi?” he said to either of the two adults. 

“Yes that’s me.” Jon told him nervously as the other’s listened in. 

“I’m Dr. Botkin, your wife is doing fine. She did have a mild heart attack and I have to say she did the right thing by taking her nitro right away. Plus it would have helped her a lot more if she did tell you that she was having the pain than her going to try and relieve it herself.” he told Jon as he has told most of his patients. 

Jon as angry as he was with her he knew he really couldn’t change her. “Yeah she’s stubborn like that. Doesn’t want to make the people around her worry.” he told the doctor as he kept running his hands thru his hair. 

“I understand that Mr. Bongiovi but this is what prevents me from doing my job. Anyway you can see her in a little while. We have her sedated right now but as soon as she wakes up you all can see her. Why don’t you go home and get some rest and I’ll have the desk nurse call you when she wakes up.” he told Jon and the guys. 

Jon thought about it for about a second then told him, “No that’s fine I’ll just wait in her room. Why don’t you guys go back to the house and get some rest and I’ll call when Mom is awake.” he told Jim and Richie.  

“Mr. Bongiovi that’s not necessary really our staff here..." but Jon cut him off. 

“Dr. Botkin, Right? I’m not going anywhere. Got that? When she wakes up and she tells me that she is fine and then tells me to leave and get some rest then I’ll go. But till then I’m not going anywhere. Now if you’ll have one of your nurses show me where my wife is I really don’t think you want me going door to door trying to find her.” Jon said matter of fact. 

Richie and Jimmy were trying very hard not to laugh as they knew damn well that Jon meant every word that he said. Jimmy spoke up, “Dad, we’ll be waiting for your call.” and hugged him as he and Richie left. 

The doctor had gotten one of the nurses to take Jon to his wife’s room. Turning to him, “Mr. Bongiovi if there is anything I or one of the other nurses can get you just press the call button.” 

“Thank You.” Pushing the chair closer to the bed he sat and took Ellie’s hand gently in his and praying that she would wake up soon. Memories started to flood him of the time when he first met her to when they met again to when they eloped to when they had their other children. All the things that he wanted to tell her Thank You for and all the other things that he wanted to say he was sorry for. Missing birthdays, Christmases, all the family holidays he should have been there for and for two of the births he missed which killed him, school outings that he should have been there for and the list went on and on. Why didn’t she complain more? She had every right too.  

Jon fell asleep for a little bit and was dreaming that he and Ellie were walking on the beach hand in hand. When finally he stopped her and turned her in his arms and started to kiss her passionately when something started to shake him. He opened his eyes and when he looked up he saw the prettiest pair of hazel blue eyes looking back at him. “Well hey there beautiful. Your finally up. “he told her smiling those pearly whites of his.  

She tried to smile but all it did was come out in a small one. “Hey.”  

“Does your throat hurt” he asked.  She shook her head yes. 

“I’m sorry Sweetheart but it should get better soon. I’ll let the nurse know ok? Do you remember what happened to you?” he asked her. 

She shook her head yes as it was hard to talk. 

“You do know we are going to talk about this right?” he told her. 

She again shook her head yes and Jon stood up and leaned down to kiss her lips gently. “I’m going to let them know you’re awake and see if I get you some ice or water. I’ll be right back. Oh yeah and I have to call Rich and Jimmy they were sitting here with me until I sent them home, Love You.” he told her as he left to do what he had too. She just watched him leave and as he did she just rolled her eyes when he did.